12.30 pm this afternoon, waved goodbye and the notionless annyong to my sister, Wa at Lembah Beringin, Perak. 12.30 pm this afternoon, turned away to fast and walked towards the car with only one glance, because tears aren’t to be obedient. 12.30 pm this afternoon, drove away and was told that ayah cried, his usual sweet tears. 12.30 pm and realised that life moves on.

my brother has been away, i accepted. abang id too, i accepted. my going away (and leaving still for two more years), i accepted. but when my little sister leaves, i thought that maybe, time should stop. maybe she should have gone to school some nearer (and, yea, ok, Lembah Beringin is only 45 minutes away). maybe people should be ban from leaving home. maybe… maybe… i’m being a tad, bit, selfish.

should my emotions take over my body (and they usually do) i would have cried and wailed and not let her leave house. atleast, not until i am safe at home. but reasoning and logic is a practical thing to do and thus, like ayah, mak and mel (and like all of them did for me before), i accepted and let her go.

because growing up is apart of the beautiful journey in life.

wa, this is a new life. not exactly thousand miles and 14 hours away (by flight) but an indepedent one still. new people, stranger. i am afraid of what they might say to hurt you. afraid that you would not be able to adapt and adjust. i am afraid because being your older sister, i do not know how much pain you can take (because in within this family radius, you are always protected). but i guess, saying this is as if i am insulting you. i should give you more credit than this.

and you know what, i think i will.

Hwaiting!

ida